It's Monday and it's been a busy morning. It's noon and I'm eating a post work out snack of steamed kale with lemon juice. mmmmm YUM! Right?! I've taken care of some work things but man the day is already flying by and I have so much to do and so much on my mind to share that I have to pace myself.
So ahhh yes...Mental Health Part 2. It's an on going thing. Something most of us have to do some sort of meditation, exercise, prayer, self talk and the list goes on just to keep ourselves from falling into a pit or a hole for that matter. For some it takes extreme effort to put a smile on and face the world each day. For some it's just the occasional slip into a hole but we are holding on to the edge trying not to fall in and can pull ourselves out of it fairly well and move on. And others need help getting out.
One of the compliments I received recently was that they said at least I'm aware and in-tune with my body and know that I need to do something and take action. If you want to follow me, I will continue to write about mental health topics. I will be sharing recent experiences with my own daughter who recently experienced her own difficulty with mental health. And I firmly believe mental awareness is of utmost importance in this world we live in. We have a mental health crisis in the world and especially in the youth. And I'm sure that my own issues and struggles these past few years was no help to my daughter, nor was it a coincidence that she then too suffered a bit of her own.
I left off with my daughter telling me some time ago that while I was at home working that while I was home, I wasn't really there. I wasn't present to my children. So many excuses and just drowning myself in work and it was hard to separate myself and still is sometimes. One of the cons to working at home is keeping that balance. As at least in my job there was rarely a time I was so caught up that there wasn't something I needed or could be doing. But was it worth it? Worth sacrificing those late nights missing out on time with my family? No, it wasn't. Especially when I came across that meme that said to the effect that everyone "at work" is replaceable. And if I quit or was fired, I'd be replaced and it really wouldn't matter. OUCH! We all hope we can gain that "irreplaceable" status but even the best hot shots can be replaced. Being in HR/Payroll I see people replaced all the time or people you think will be there forever quit and leave you hanging. So I decided recently I wasn't going to let my job run me and I would run my job.
Oh that felt good! To really finally be able to do that and while I'm still figuring out my pace between work, home, fitness, and even my spiritual life, I'm starting to feel more of that coming into a balance. (See my next post on Self Care). I had let soooo much get to me with my work. It became an unhealthy feeling. I had been feeling at odds for way too long. So much so, my work had begun to suffer along with my family and healthy life. My mind feeling like it was literally stuck in the mud.
And I'm one of those people that will toughen up and get over it, buck up people type of talk and I already have the knowledge of what it takes to be successful and healthy and live a balanced life, but I wasn't living it. I'm human too and I got stuck. I was angry, resentful, bitter, bitchy, ungrateful at times, whining, complaining and full on temper tantrums at time. Easily provoked and knocked down. It wasn't all work related, most of it but not all of it...but that's always it right? A accumulation of things all piling on top of each other and I finally burst. I never want to feel that away again.
Of course not everything is just hunky-dory at the moment. Like I said...I'm still coming through this fog and funk but each day the sun is brighter. So what am I doing to make things better? Well first of all, I'm taking back some time to have to myself two work on things like I am now writing to you all. But one of the things our family did recently that was huge, we moved. Details another time but to sum it up, my son is in a special program to help him with his learning disability and we were driving over 4 hours a day just for that so you can imagine that was taking a toll on our already crazy lives. So we made a compromise and at least "for now" moved to an area that's in between (traffic wise) my kids schools and we cut our driving time in 1/2. Whew! Praise the Lord for that!
So making that drastic changed really helped me to make other changes and habits. Getting back to eating right, getting on a consistent workout program and joining an accountability group. I don't work when my kids are home school. I've actually cooked more in just a few months than I have in years combined. It's a few little things I'm doing overtime to make big changes and I'm feeling much better these days. My kids and husband can tell as well. There are still those rough days or weeks but all in all, it's getting back or even to a better way of living each day. Making changes can be tough. Most people I know don't like change. I like change but most people I find don't so that can make it even harder. But we all have challenges and making changes, trying new things is how we learn. How will you ever know if you don't give it a try.
I love personal development books and practises that I attribute that to my growth as a person and my self awareness. There are so many amazing tools and recourse's out there and it's worth investing in to bettering yourself. Seeing a therapist, or work books to help you with an area of need. Setting time a side to evaluate yourself and where you want to go in life, the quality of life you want to live and start making small adjustments and changes to your practises/behavior to help you get there. We don't know how much time we have in this life. We can easily let life take over and rule over us...or we can run our own lives but it takes a lot of work and consistency to get there. Don't be afraid or ashamed to ask for help. We all need it from time to time. More later...until next time. Just take one day at a time and the best you can. Some days our best is better than others. Hang in there.
One of the compliments I received recently was that they said at least I'm aware and in-tune with my body and know that I need to do something and take action. If you want to follow me, I will continue to write about mental health topics. I will be sharing recent experiences with my own daughter who recently experienced her own difficulty with mental health. And I firmly believe mental awareness is of utmost importance in this world we live in. We have a mental health crisis in the world and especially in the youth. And I'm sure that my own issues and struggles these past few years was no help to my daughter, nor was it a coincidence that she then too suffered a bit of her own.
I left off with my daughter telling me some time ago that while I was at home working that while I was home, I wasn't really there. I wasn't present to my children. So many excuses and just drowning myself in work and it was hard to separate myself and still is sometimes. One of the cons to working at home is keeping that balance. As at least in my job there was rarely a time I was so caught up that there wasn't something I needed or could be doing. But was it worth it? Worth sacrificing those late nights missing out on time with my family? No, it wasn't. Especially when I came across that meme that said to the effect that everyone "at work" is replaceable. And if I quit or was fired, I'd be replaced and it really wouldn't matter. OUCH! We all hope we can gain that "irreplaceable" status but even the best hot shots can be replaced. Being in HR/Payroll I see people replaced all the time or people you think will be there forever quit and leave you hanging. So I decided recently I wasn't going to let my job run me and I would run my job.
Oh that felt good! To really finally be able to do that and while I'm still figuring out my pace between work, home, fitness, and even my spiritual life, I'm starting to feel more of that coming into a balance. (See my next post on Self Care). I had let soooo much get to me with my work. It became an unhealthy feeling. I had been feeling at odds for way too long. So much so, my work had begun to suffer along with my family and healthy life. My mind feeling like it was literally stuck in the mud.
And I'm one of those people that will toughen up and get over it, buck up people type of talk and I already have the knowledge of what it takes to be successful and healthy and live a balanced life, but I wasn't living it. I'm human too and I got stuck. I was angry, resentful, bitter, bitchy, ungrateful at times, whining, complaining and full on temper tantrums at time. Easily provoked and knocked down. It wasn't all work related, most of it but not all of it...but that's always it right? A accumulation of things all piling on top of each other and I finally burst. I never want to feel that away again.
Of course not everything is just hunky-dory at the moment. Like I said...I'm still coming through this fog and funk but each day the sun is brighter. So what am I doing to make things better? Well first of all, I'm taking back some time to have to myself two work on things like I am now writing to you all. But one of the things our family did recently that was huge, we moved. Details another time but to sum it up, my son is in a special program to help him with his learning disability and we were driving over 4 hours a day just for that so you can imagine that was taking a toll on our already crazy lives. So we made a compromise and at least "for now" moved to an area that's in between (traffic wise) my kids schools and we cut our driving time in 1/2. Whew! Praise the Lord for that!
So making that drastic changed really helped me to make other changes and habits. Getting back to eating right, getting on a consistent workout program and joining an accountability group. I don't work when my kids are home school. I've actually cooked more in just a few months than I have in years combined. It's a few little things I'm doing overtime to make big changes and I'm feeling much better these days. My kids and husband can tell as well. There are still those rough days or weeks but all in all, it's getting back or even to a better way of living each day. Making changes can be tough. Most people I know don't like change. I like change but most people I find don't so that can make it even harder. But we all have challenges and making changes, trying new things is how we learn. How will you ever know if you don't give it a try.
I love personal development books and practises that I attribute that to my growth as a person and my self awareness. There are so many amazing tools and recourse's out there and it's worth investing in to bettering yourself. Seeing a therapist, or work books to help you with an area of need. Setting time a side to evaluate yourself and where you want to go in life, the quality of life you want to live and start making small adjustments and changes to your practises/behavior to help you get there. We don't know how much time we have in this life. We can easily let life take over and rule over us...or we can run our own lives but it takes a lot of work and consistency to get there. Don't be afraid or ashamed to ask for help. We all need it from time to time. More later...until next time. Just take one day at a time and the best you can. Some days our best is better than others. Hang in there.
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